Confession Tuesday

Dear reader, it's been one week, $7500, two rejections and two new books since my last confession. I've been busy busy busy this week and sins have been easy to miss and what would I have to confess? Let's dig deep.

Is there ever a good place to begin? How about with the emotional truth...


1) Last night I almost cried during "Because I Said So" when the daughter (played by Mandy Moore) wouldn't pick up the phone and talk with her mom (Diane Keaton). I would have cried except I held it in because I always feel so goofy when I cry during movies. Other dumb movies I cried during-- 13 Going on 30 (I'm quite embarrassed by this given the fact IT'S A COMEDY), The Water Horse, and of course, every time I see it, Dumbo.


2) The movie I cried hardest during was Bridges of Madison County, which I saw in a theatre. I cried while the movie was over, leaving the theatre, and the whole ride home. My husband finally asked me "Why are you crying so hard?" Through sobs I said, "She had so many unfulfilled dreams." (Oh, the melodrama.) I didn't understand then why this movie turned me into the ridiculous blubbering idiot until later I realized that I was afraid that one day I'd become her, and that would be my life.

3) Despite confessions 1 & 2, I am really not a crier.

4) Every time I buy alcohol, I'm always surprised I'm not carded. When did this stop happening? Probably the same time the workers in the GAP started calling me "ma'am."

But for some reason, in my mind I think I stopped aging at 25. I know I didn't, but I don't feel as if I'm 39. And when I look in the mirror, I don't think I look any different than I did at 25 (I do.)

5)Strangely, at 39, I like myself a lot more (inside and out) than I did in my 20's. I think I've eased up and become much more forgiving to myself--I've also realized after giving birth, just how amazing women's bodies are, and with that, appreciation for my own.

6) On that same thought, I have never said "I'm fat, I feel fat, I look fat, I hate my thighs, my butt, my __________" since my daughter was born because I never wanted her to look at herself the way I grew up looking at myself.

7) A friend and I were in a parking lot and saw this vanity plate on a Jaguar and immediately started laughing. It read: CATSASS - the owner must know (and like) both meanings, right?

8) And again, on that same thought, I found that Botticelli image on a website named: TOPOFART.COM - - I know they really mean TOP OF ART, but all I see when I look at it is TOPO FART.

9) We watched A Charlie Brown Valentine for family movie night and I kept waiting for the part where Snoopy cuts this fantastic valentine (something I tried to recreate as a child), but that scene never came. Now I realize, what I wanted to watch was "Be My Valentine, Charlie Brown" (1975). Just be aware friends, just be aware...

10) In watching A Charlie Brown Valentine I realized I have the same haircut as Peppermint Patty. I kind of like that I have the same haircut at Peppermint Patty.

(I also have freckles.)