|Ghosts of people who once had time...|
When it comes to December, I love the end of the year because I know it's a time I can start fresh again.
I like the feeling that I can wake up with a fresh calendar and clean slate. Actually, every morning we have that, but with the year change, it feels bigger.
It feels like a new opportunity to be the person I want to be.
The older I get, the more I realize we can be whomever we want to be. We choose our thoughts, our dress, our priorities, our actions.
If we are not the person we want to be, if we are not living the life we want to live, there is only one way to look-- in the mirror. Our lives do not just appear in front of us, we create them.
Yes, there are many things we don't plan for, many things that catch us off guard, but mostly, the every day stuff, the things we choose to do with our time-- that's us.
When I was younger, this freaked me out a bit. It was much easier to see my life as a series of bad things that happened to me or because this was just how things were than to take any sort of accountability or action for my unhappiness or dissatisfaction with the way things were.
What I don't think I realized is that we are each given our time and we choose how we want to use it.
Do I want to write or watch reruns of Glee?
Do I want to make my way as a writer in the world or do I want to do laundry? (Note: sometimes you have to do laundry.)
We are in the places we are because of decisions we made in the past.
If you are not happy with your life, ask yourself, "What can I do differently? Better?"
If you are happy with your life, ask yourself, "How can I continue to keep this happiness or maybe, even create more?"
What do you like about your life right now and what do you want to change?
What have I learned most in 2012?
That I need to stretch from my comfort zone and do things that make me uncomfortable, I need to do things that stretch myself.
I have learned that big changes happen with little steps forward.
I am nowhere near perfect, but the older I get the more I realize how this is my life and I may not always be steering it (or steering it perfectly), I can definitely lean in the direction I hope to go.
Cheers to all of you in the New Year and sending much good energy to the person you are and person you hope to become in 2013...
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